and he simply said no...
home…lovely food.mamma.pa…oh god,it feels good!life’s grt…ma’s omlette.aamras.golden wheat bread.sugarcane.maina.neera.polya.gharcha chaha.sabudanyacha vada.pulpy orange.dominoes…….
i barely notice the kid as i walk past him.i did register in my head tht he ws selling incense…n tht i cudnt afford spending for charity…n tht it doesn make me mean or selfish or anythin…jus says i hv limitations…n tht sumday wen i m capabale i will do sumthin for thm…n the kid is arnd 7…but hey,thts jus registering facts…no big deal.
i order stuff.m sittin arnd.loads of pizza on the next table…gen guys hanging out…i’m not interested in wat mum’s saying on the fone…the guys on the nxt table r done.a couple pieces remaining…why m i following all this?!…one of thm call the kid…”u had nethin for dinner yet?”…he shook his head….”hv this pizza…m not eating it anyway…”…..his eyes gleamed as he looked at the fancy cheesy piece…for one entire second…and simply said no.
i cudnt help smiling.i ws searching for sum regret…sumcraving..or sum sumthin on tht 7 yr old face…none. he walks inside…prolly looks at the clock…jumps out with a huge smile…crosses the road in a couple strides n runs off towards the slums behind….
he’ll do grt stuff ahead,i say to myself.
funny.i actually SAID tht to myself at the same precise moment i realised tht i had no right whatsoever to judge the boy…u dont judge sumthin as pure n untouched as tht—-u jus dont.
i shut my eyes close…sumthin felt right within in a very weird ,twisted way.i groped for a while…it ws the meaning.the emotion.n i knew it thn,tht i thrived on tht stuff.
wow….means i m still alive….wow….
i guess thts why home’s gud…..so so gud.
[p.s.- i hate tht i m using so many ellipses…thts supposed to be MY trademark on paper…damn,i hv issues….n its all ur fault!!!]
1 year ago