my big lesson
so i have been sad for a long time abt not lrning enf…
life has its ways of teaching u stuff tho….atleast so it seems.
i didnt realise it wen i ws depressed.i didnt realise it wen i ws angry.i didnt realise it wen i ws goin thru it atall…in fact the guy i lrnt it frm doenst even hv nethin to do with this….or maybe he does…a lil bit.
Life’s not abt gettin things done…its more abt doin wat u wanna rite now.
“no one’s gonna say anythin to u…” :) :) :)
u wer randomly saying stuff,i kno.
but it reminded me of school…wen i ws so sure abt my dream….of the blank canvas…the color splashes…the spontaneous shapes…ah…it seemed so far away……
cancer.i dunno if i wanna see another death.
the colors came bak…the shapes…the canvas…everythin…
i seemed to hv forgotten the taste of happiness…hv missed it so much…
maybe thts why,rite now,knowing i’m gonna screw up gen phy tomorrow n tht i barely know anythin abt ot n the fact tht im lissenin to backstreet boys after ages doesnt make me feel like a loser….
its not abt wats supposed to be….it nvr was…n i’ll make sure it nvr will be.
like i said,ur weird.
1 year ago